So August has come and gone, and with it, the BlogsOfAugust challenge that Mike Elgan co-ordinates. The idea is that you concentrate all your blog posts on your G+ stream exclusively, to prove it can be done, and done well.
I decided to give it a go on a whim, because that’s how I do most things. It was a bit intimidating, since the calibre of the repeat performers is several steps above where I place myself on the scale of things, but I’ve struck it lucky with my circles on Google and everyone is really supportive and friendly.
I managed about four posts, I think, but it was probably four more than what I would have recorded here, in all honesty. It wasn’t that I scared to share my thoughts, but the dead opposite. As soon as I was reading what everyone else was putting out into the world, I got hit by a bunch of different ideas for writing – actual creative writing. Mostly of the loose fanfic kind that I obsess over, but it’s writing anyway. So instead of waxing poetic all over a willing audience, I started banging out page after page of utter Mary Sue drivel that I keep re-reading, tweaking, and generally overcongratulating myself on.
And then… I found a new-to-me fanfic space that spurred me to ditch the Mary Sue. For the first time in forever, I’m actually writing something that I might be inclined to share with an audience. I’m not sure my progress is actually related to the blog challenge, which I’m fairly sure I scraped through with a C+ at best, but the confidence boost has been great.
I think I’m not built to be a blogger, not in the modern sense of the word. I liked the original, simple web-blog idea, where you just slapped your thoughts up to see if anyone else agreed. I don’t have a message for the masses, and the idea of building an audience is quite terrifying, so I don’t think this particular blog is ever going to amount to much more than an extension of my private journal.
So, I think I’m going to semi-retire from blogging. I’ll use this space for answering prompts, but anything vaguely important will be on G+ – Mike’s challenge has convinced me that I don’t need to panic about exposing my limitations to people I admire.